.. for me right now..

things started happening around me .. i kind of forced them 2happen sometimes, but mostly they were the typical coincidences, that are 2coincidental 2be true..

i ve livd in my home town (that s 'preshov, slovakia' for anybody interestd) for most of my 19 yrs, so i got kinda used 2it.. true, i spent quite some time away from home in the past 3-4 yrs, mostly during summer, but my friends were there so twas all ok.. it still is, although it changed massively..

in high school, i used to spend almost every evening with people i knew, from school or just from the bars were we went..
i dont get 2see them that often anymore, just once in 2weeks or once a month..
its not like i dont try 2be with em more often.. its all about me being away from home.. studying at my university (Faculty of Architecture, Slovak Technical University), trying 2learn something more about things i wanna do when i 'grow up'..
the university is in bratislava, thats 450km from home.. and no, im not homesick.. im kinda 2old for that now..
seeing my friends less isnt all bad - i always chat with them when i come home, get all the 'latest news'.. and i appreciate them more now..

the only problem is{or was} one that i ve 'solved' just a few days ago .. having a girlfriend, and not being able 2be with her more then 3days out of 14..
it never posed a problem for me 2stay faithful.. i always loved her, sometimes more passionately, sometimes less.. but i never did anything 2hurt her.. or at least i tried.. cause sometimes u hurt someone even by doing nothing..
we were toghether for 2years now, and we were OK with it all.. it wasnt all good, but nothing really is {or is it? its just that this is what people like to think so that they feel better}..

and then i cheated on her for the first time.. with a girl i fell in love with after knowing her for just 7hours.. she hated me for that, but i was happier.. and i dont feel any regrets for what i ve done.. the girls name was Dana, she studies in bratislava like me, just on a different school.. but it didnt work out between us.. she was looking for somebody else, somebody i couldnt replace.. after breaking up with her i went back 2my
ex-girlfriend.. not immediately, but i did.. and that was an even bigger mistake to make .. although i know i d do it again if i could choose 2..
it first looked OK - we were together again, and our relationship was better off.. what i didnt realize then was just that it wasnt love anymore - it was just habit..

i know that now.. but i had to fall in love with someone else for the second time to see it.. and i hurt her a lot by telling her afterwards and not before i got together with my new girl, Hanna..

but im happy now.. and in love and shining after quite a long time..
so i cant be sorry for what i ve done, im only sorry i hurt my ex.. sorry for being an ass...

.. shit and life are 2things that happen ..